Days go by
And still I think of you
Days when I couldn’t live my life without you
-Days Go By / Dirty Vegas
I find there are so many days that go by where I kick myself in the ass over and over about not checking in here. I need you. I need the support I get here, and when I turn my back on posting what’s going on you should know it’s because I am overwhelmed with crap.
I am not apologizing for anything. I haven’t made horrible choices. I have just not been consistent. I miss Zumba. I miss being psoriasis free. I miss making fabulous meals I feel good about feeding myself and my family. I miss waking up fresh and not sluggish. Sigh.
I also struggle with dealing with some friends comments regarding my diet, or some of my blog posts. I know deep down they support me and want to see me succeed, but on the other hand I feel judged which doesn’t feel good. I feel good for a minute, and being an addict I struggle with everything. It doesn’t matter if I am following a Paleo diet or a clean living diet, or even just eating moderately. I am an addict and I am sick. I use food as a comfort for illness, sadness, anger, or anything I encounter in my life.
I got it out. And again, for the umpteenth time, I start fresh.