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Debauchery for the 4th of July (5th, 6th, 7th, 8th…)

Debauchery – extreme indulgence in sensuality (as it relates to  relating to or consisting in the gratification of the senses or the indulgence of appetite)


I LOVE the 4th of July.  I am a patriotic American to the very depths of my soul.  Living in Sonoma we get to enjoy small town Americana through the hometown parade, festivities on our town square, bbq’s/picnics, and then close the evening with the fireworks display.

The day was filled with friends (old and new) and family, as well as good intentions on my part. Our day began with meeting my cousins wife and her two doll faced twins out at the parade.  I steered clear of juices, rice crispy treats, and other tasty morsels.  I just enjoyed being out with the family and watching the town parade.  As the day went on, and I saw the different treats available my stomach started to barter with my brain.  The food booths were tempting me with bbq, hot dogs, sno cones, and the list goes on.  I was strong, I didn’t give into those temptations.  My aunt was nice and invited us all to lunch.

Lunch was a beautiful salad, full of yummy greens, veggies, and tomatoes (uh oh), feta (oi), candied walnuts (sh*@), and a champagne vinaigrette which I didn’t ask for on the side (mu#$a&*c@er).  And so began my descent.

It’s like I gave up in one fleeting moment.  No, I didn’t give up, I just really relaxed.  I felt like I had this shit handled and it was a holiday.  Yay for 20%, even though I hadn’t said I was going to be doing 80/20 yet, I just decided on the spot.  Lunch was late, and we were planning to hit the field at a local school to watch the fireworks with friends, so we planned a little picnic.   Picnic was sliced roast beef, salami(hmmm), fruits, hummus, rice crackers, bread (wtf?), corn on the cob (who do I think I am?), and cheese for my man (I didn’t touch the stuff…smells like feet).  Had I stayed clear of the corn and the bread, things would have been fine, but NO! I had to go for it and just enjoy.  And so I did, without guilt.  I had planned to fall back into place the very next day.

The day after a mid-week holiday is never easy to face.  I just had a fabulous time staying up late, watching fireworks, hanging out with friends lighting sparklers (and burning my damn thumb) and I rolled out of bed late.  No time for a shake this morning, so I grabbed some fruit and nuts.  WORST IDEA EVER!  Not only did I not eat my morning shake, I didn’t pack a lunch.  Typically when I don’t pack a lunch, I hit up Whole Foods or the salad place and make super good choices. Not July 5th.  I don’t even remember what I ate that day because my food journal says “NOTHING GOOD FOR ME” in big squiggly handwriting.  Ugh.

A few of those days involved frozen yogurt (I didn’t get crazy with it), a burrito, some chips, and almost an entire bag of salt water taffy.  Some of those days I could consider a binge.  I did hide in my car and eat an It’s-It one night.  But really, most the eating was done as a normal day to day eating habit.  Just fell back into some of the wrong ones.

That leads me to where I am today.  I am on Day 2 of the Clear Change Metabolic Detoxification as prescribed by my doctor.  Tuesday I walked into his office feeling lethargic, nauseous, achy, with a growing patch of psoriasis on my elbow.

Thank you sugar and gluten! I love you, too.

It is clear, that even with over 100 days of clean eating, my body is still toxic since it is so quick to react to a bad few days.  Pretty much the day after I ate poorly I started getting a small patch of red on my elbow, and it kept growing and then I got sick. So, Dr. Marcus is getting my body straightened out.  It will reignite my metabolism, and clear my system.

Please don’t worry, this is not your typical cleanse/detox.  I still eat, I just eliminate most foods that can cause reactions in someones body.  I look forward to getting this shit out of my system.  I look forward to being free of feeling like crap.  I look forward to going through my day and looking to food as nourishment instead of the negative feelings I have towards food today.

Wish me luck!


3 thoughts on “Debauchery for the 4th of July (5th, 6th, 7th, 8th…)

  1. Ok first, THE CHEESE DID NOT SMELL LIKE FEET! I hate cheese like that. Second, I love you. Third, you could have done a better job concealing the Ice Cream Sandwich, I found the wrapper in the car. Fourth, I love you. Fifth, You are becoming so good with your eating that what you described above would have been a one day binge just half a year ago and not a week long (slight) lapse. And sixth, and lastly, I love you.

  2. OMG I COULD SO GO FOR AN ITS IT RIGHT NOW. That aside, as long as your back on track it was all just a learning experience. I’m going to go log onto my blog and share a little binge I did so you’re not alone. So you broke an egg, you don’t thrown out the whole dozen. Your body quickly reminded you what it needed and what it didn’t, and as long as you listen you come out a winner.

    1. I am beyond thankful that my body reminded me I was going down a dark road. I am already starting to feel a little better in just the few days I have been back on track. I am more than a billion times thankful I didn’t take a drink of soda or energy drink when I was feeling slow. If there is one thing I know I will stick to for life now it will be avoiding sodas, energy drinks, and artificial sweeteners because when I was feeling relaxed on my diet, not once did any of those things sound appealing. I think that’s a step in the right direction. 🙂
      I love you and I am so happy you shared your lapse in your blog too.

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