What’s on your bucket list? Have you ever written one? If not you need to stop reading and relax for a bit and write down the things you want to do in your life before you kick the bucket, or like my list, before you reach a specific age (50).
Tomorrow I will complete another half marathon. This has been checked off my list multiple times now, but it was once on my list and I had promised myself all those years ago I would never be out of shape again. I let myself down. I got to a place where I waddled when I walked and became out of breath as I struggled to climb stairs.
I didn’t plan for this half marathon to happen during Project Muffin Top. Actually one of my best friends, who completed the same event with me four years ago, signed me up without my knowledge way before this all began.
Am I ready? Shit, I don’t know if I am ready to complete a 5k, but I know what my body is capable of, so I know I can do this. I am way more prepared than the first half I completed. I know What to expect of my body from mile 0 to mile 2 (burning shins), and I know at mile 8 I need to change my socks (ya, I got sweaty feet and if I don’t swap socks I get blisters the size of Texas). I know at the end of 13.1 miles I need a good stretch, good protein, and an ice bath. What I don’t know is what will be going through my head. Will I be fighting the inner battle of my body saying stop and my brain saying it can’t go on and my heart saying “F you both, put your big girl panties on and keep going!”. That battle takes this piss out of me. I am thankful Maureen will be with me. She’s been my half marathon motivator for a few events now and I don’t think I would have followed through without her participating as well. She helps give me my strength by reminding me how much strength I have. What’s her benefit? She gets to giggle about my inevitable mile eight breakdown for years. She loves me.
My main point here is, have goals in your life. Check those goals off your lists, and when you make yourself a promise, keep it. I feel like I am starting my Bucket List over because I let myself get so out of shape, but as I think about where I was and where I am now, I am way better off. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I am eating healthier then I ever have, and I am happy. I may not finish in the time frame I hoped I will finish, but I will finish because I haven’t given up.