Binge Eating · Daily Hurdles · Project Muffin Top

Damn French Fries

When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bonds: Your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in everydirection, and you find yourself in a new, great, and wonderful world. Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive, and you discover yourself to be a greater person by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be. ~ Patanjali – the author of Yoga Sutra

For the last few weeks I have been in a mental limbo.  I started this journey with one of my closest friends, and when she went into isolation from me, Heather, EA, and the rest of the Project Muffin Top team I started questioning my own reasons for being here.  I kept forging ahead by working out, eating right, and keeping in contact with my support group, but in the back  of my mind I was disappointed and frustrated and  was struggling to keep myself from resorting to bingeing.

Binge eating isn’t something I want to think about or use as an excuse.  When my brain stops all logical thought I resort to “stuffing” my emotions.  It takes every ounce of self control I have to keep myself from resorting to a binge.  There were so many times these last few weeks that I have wanted nothing more than to just eat.  I craved the feeling of being numb, which is exactly how I feel when I am bingeing.  I am not here, I leave my body for a moment and just eat.  I wanted that feeling of not being here, but I fought it.  I would circle the grocery store trying to find something I could just sit and eat in the car, and every time I was about to pick up a bag of bagels and tub of cream cheese I caught myself.  I told myself the escape would be short lived and I would feel horrible after.  Not just sick, but sad, depressed, guilty, etc.  Today, I actually gave in to the temptations and purchased french fries.  Not really what I wanted, but they were there and I thought it would ‘help’.  A large handful of french fries went into my mouth, and instantly I was aware of the choice I was making.  Most of all, I was fu&*ing pissed off because they didn’t taste as good as I wanted them too and were not satisfying.  I gave them away and sent Heather a text.  She was right there with words of encouragement.  I am not letting that slip get me down.

I need to make every effort I can to keep myself focused.  I am doing this for ME!  While I come first, I also love that I am inspiring others as I stumble along trying to reach my goals.  Thank you Rachael L. for reminding me of this today.  Meeting you this evening helped me realize I have a team of silent cheerleaders who are going through similar struggles.  That reminds me, I need to get in touch with a few ladies who have offered to be walking/workout buddies.  Aimee and Critter, expect emails soon!  I am so taking you up on the offer.

It’s WAYYYYY past my bedtime and I have a date with Heather at the buttcrack of dawn tomorrow to walk (rather I will jog while trying to keep up with Heather the power walker).  I am still learning to get a full eight hours of sleep a night.  Soon, very soon it will happen.  Before I go I want to share 10 Strategies to Overcoming Binge Eating.  Many are helpful and some I need to remember to do (HELLO FOOD DIARY!!  I was sooo good for a hot minute) maybe they could help you too?

  • Manage stress. One of the most important aspects of controlling binge eating is to find alternate ways to handle stress and other overwhelming feelings without using food. These may include exercising, meditating, using sensory relaxation strategies, and practicing simple breathing exercises.
  • Eat 3 meals a day plus healthy snacks.  Eating breakfast jump starts your metabolism in the morning. Follow breakfast with a balanced lunch and dinner, and healthy snacks in between. Stick to scheduled mealtimes, as skipping meals often leads to binge eating later in the day.
  • Avoid temptation. You’re much more likely to overeat if you have junk food, desserts, and unhealthy snacks in the house. Remove the temptation by clearing your fridge and cupboards of your favorite binge foods.
  • Stop dieting. The deprivation and hunger of strict dieting can trigger food cravings and the urge to overeat. Instead of dieting, focus on eating in moderation. Find nutritious foods that you enjoy and eat only until you feel content, not uncomfortably stuffed. Avoid banning certain foods as this can make you crave them even more.
  • Exercise. Not only will exercise help you lose weight in a healthy way, but it also lifts depression, improves overall health, and reduces stress. The natural mood-boosting effects of exercise can help put a stop to emotional eating.
  • Fight boredom.Instead of snacking when you’re bored, distract yourself. Take a walk, call a friend, read, or take up a hobby such as painting or gardening.
  • Get enough sleep. If you’re tired, you may want to keep eating in order to boost your energy. Take a nap or go to bed earlier instead.
  • Listen to your body.Learn to distinguish between physical and emotional hunger. If you ate recently and don’t have a rumbling stomach, you’re probably not really hungry. Give the craving time to pass.
  • Keep a food diary.Write down what you eat, when, how much, and how you’re feeling when you eat. You may see patterns emerge that reveal the connection between your moods and binge eating.
  • Get support. You’re more likely to succumb to binge eating triggers if you lack a solid support network. Talking helps, even if it’s not with a professional. Lean on family and friends, join a support group, and if possible consult a therapist.

For more information on Binge Eating click HERE.


6 thoughts on “Damn French Fries

  1. I will be waiting to hear from you and really anytime you get that urge please feel free to get a hold of me and we can walk it out 🙂 I don’t move very fast but I will gladly do all that I can. Stay strong lady cause you are AMAZING!

  2. Wish I was around to walk with you. Hey, you are learning to not let food control you so don’t let those French fries you did eat control how you feel about yourself. Focus on the fries you didn’t wat. I know that you are on a strict plan but I find it helpful to allow myself one treat each weekend, single serving, and as natural as I can do it (like homemade over processed) and it really helps me to not.feel like I am deprived, and heads up it hardly ever tastes as good as I think it will.

  3. thank you for sharing! I have embarked on my own project muffintop here and am fighting my way through ups and downs. I remain encouraged! 🙂

    1. Best wishes to you as you embark on your own Project Muffintop. There will be many obstacles, but stay strong and you will succeed!

  4. You are bad-ass mama. I am so incredibly impressed with your battles and how you handle them. I wish I was closer to walk and talk with you. I am a far off cheerleader, thinking of you more often then you will ever know. You can do it. You can meet your goals. You have done it in so many other ways in your life, why would this be any different. Love you.

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