The original challenge here was written as “Who are you?” I think that’s a pretty vague question, and will really be answered over the course of this blogs lifespan, so I went with the picture of myself. This picture really speaks volumes as to who I am and where I am at in my life right now. It’s a before and after from April of last year and to me just a few days ago. I see this and am in shock what a difference can be made in just a short period of time.
In the photo on the left, I knew I was heavy, but I didn’t see it as much of a difference to any other time I have been lugging around a few extra pounds. Sure, my blood pressure was increasing, aches and pains were a giant drag, and I was not able to sleep at night, but I thought I was still in a pretty good space health wise. I felt like I was getting older and those were all things I would have to accept. A little over a year later and I realize how wrong I was. Those aches and pains and other issues were all so easy to fix through simply changing my eating habits and moving my body. Finding those foods that caused my body to be in pain and create inflammation, and eliminating them was all I needed to do to help my body feel like it should. I didn’t have to live in pain. I didn’t have to suffer through sleepless nights. I just had to listen to my body and take care of me.
The biggest thing I see in the photo on the right isn’t actually in the picture. It’s the mental game I seem to keep playing with myself. Every morning for the last several months I have been waking up and beating myself up. Disappointed in my lack of commitment. Frustrated that I ate that sandwich when I really should have skipped the bread. Staring at my belly roll in my work pants because it’s resting on my thighs. Why can’t I embrace the progress I have made. Look at how far I have come! I am making huge strides! I look at myself on the right and think to myself “Damn girl, you’re stunning. You are doing great!”
Now, to work on saying that to myself on the daily. This picture helps me see while I have a little more work on my outside, I still have a lot of work to do on my inside. And writing this first post on this 30 Day Challenge is a reminder to me how much I learn about myself when I am blogging.