Gained weight this month. Eight pounds to be exact. I was too lax about how I was monitoring my diet. I never really followed through on writing things down and completely ignored my own recommendations. (INSERT CURSE WORDS HERE)
Disappointed and irritated. Tired of feeling like this.
All this leads to me feeling sad and depressed and frustrated. The cycle continued. I need to stop this shit. I know better. I have the recipe to my optimum health and happiness. I just need to follow it. I will follow it.
Another update, I just heard back from my doctor on an xray I had yesterday. I saw him because I have been suffering from some awful mid-back pain that has kept me up at night and started to interrupt my day to day life. I was getting moody and grumpy from being tired and uncomfortable. Found out I have bone spurs and a herniated disc. Options to get injections of cortisone and more medications or get my ass back to the anti-inflammatory diet. Inflammation is a huge part of why this flared up, so why beat around the bush.
I know where to go, I just need to go.
XO
You got this!
Thanks Marnie. I appreciate your support.
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling frustrated and sad…The anti-inflammatory diet sounds like the way to go.
I gained 3lbs, and, after I read your blog, I thought, “Hey, maybe everyone gains weight in February….It just says that it is going to be a cold March/April, and we are prepared.” Yea, us! No, not buying that one? Well, that’s my story and I am standing by it, until I get my head out of the sand.
On the more serious side, we all have moments where we have set-backs, and when it’s time, it will happen, because your heart, mind and spirit will come together and you will make it happen. Just be aware, as you go on your journey, and the one thing to maybe work on that might help, is no matter what you decide to do, the choices you make, are the choices you make, and continue always, even when you disappoint yourself to be forgiving and kind to yourself….No beating yourself up, just be aware of whats happening, and how you are feeling, forgive and move to the next choice….There are enough people in our life time that will do the beating up…Be good to yourself. I love you, and remember, go only as fast as it feels safe to go…This is your journey, yours alone, hurry up, or take your time.
Blessings to you and ALL that pertains to you…
Love,
Aunt Lena
Love you Aunt Lena. You got me all teary eyed.
Awwwwe…Tissue? …<3
No matter how hard you work, or how hard you don’t, you will always gain and lose in this crazy struggle to find a middle ground. Remember, in the big scheme of things, you’ve lost a lot of weight and you’ve gained a healthy lifestyle (or understanding of it even if you don’t always uphold to it) and it hasn’t been a year yet.
Your first 90 days were rocksolid, hardcore, tough shit. And you’ve been dealt a lot of blows these past couple weeks which you could have never emotionally, mentally, or physically prepared for. Plus, there are no 5k’s to keep you motivated until the weather gets a little sunnier… Top that off with Girls Scout Cookie season, I’d say 8 lbs just isn’t that bad.
But hey, you’ve also owned it now. And you know how to fix it, and so it’s all you!
xoxo