I am tired of being a slave to addiction.
I have found the foods that will heal me. I have found the exercise I enjoy. I am looking forward to my future, being healthy and happy.
Addiction is holding me back.
There are things I need to address regarding how I approach food on a daily basis. I have been reading other blogs of people who are struggling with the same issues. Everyone seems to have a different approach. I need to find the right one for me. The disappointment I constantly put myself through is something I can no longer tolerate. I do this to myself, but why?
That is the big question. Why?
To start, I am going to revisit a practice I learned several years ago when I was attending an eating disorder group. I need to recognize why I am hungry/eating when I am eating. It’s not an easy practice. There are times I am completely lost in a binge and don’t really know what I am doing. But see, I DO know what I am doing, I just choose not to recognize it at the time. It’s like some sort of protective wall so I don’t disrupt the binge. Very similar to when I was drinking. There was always a good reason why I was drinking and if I didn’t have one I just didn’t acknowledge that I was drinking.
Do you have similar personal battles? How do you address your issues and addictions? Do you still struggle? Whatever it is, know you are not alone. If you want to talk to someone and feel like you have no one to turn to, don’t hesitate to send me a message on my Facebook page here. All the messages are private and I am the only administrator, so I will be the only one who reads your message. But also, feel free to comment on this blog. There are readers here who are going through this or have been through it already. Share your story and support others.
XOXO – It’s a new day.