Storm Has Passed

The fog is lifted.  Things are moving in the right direction.  I don’t know where I have been, but it wasn’t very pretty.  But for the last 45 days or so I have reconnected with AA and am finally working my program.  I never took a drink, but I danced very seductively with the thought.  

I have truly embraced that the emotional and mental shit that leads me to binge eating is most certainly what led me to drinking and drugs, and any other thing I could possibly be addicted to.  Whatever shit is there, I am starting to face it.  I can’t wait for the final layer of fog to lift, but for now, the storm has passed.

10 Dislikes – 30DWC

Since yesterday was a bust, I am going to top my list of dislikes off with what kept me from posting here then.

Dislikes

Ouch. OOOOouuuuucccchhhh!!! Toothaches can really destroy a day and make you very whiny, and for that, I dislike them. I waited too long to have my dentist (who also happens to be my employer) look at my tooth that was causing me some discomfort. Found out I had a broken/chipped filling. Wham bam, the cavity is filled and ready to go, but I was achy. And it hurt to bite. So I am taking a butt ton of ibuprofen and acetaminophen to make it better. Last night was so unbearable I tried to sleep as soon as I could so I didn’t have to feel anything. Today was much better, but we are keeping our eye on it to make sure I don’t need a root canal. Yippee. I am really hoping tomorrow I am totally better.

This is exactly what I looked like, except without the manicured nails and maybe I was more scowly.

This is exactly what I looked like, except without the manicured nails and maybe I was more scowly.

Procrastination is one of my biggest dislikes in the world. It’s also something I have mastered and practice daily. I am especially talented at procrastinating the beginning of a diet or work out. If I dislike it so much, why the heck do I keep doing it? Grrrrrr.

OK, so this dislike may be specific to me, but I can’t imagine I am totally alone here. You know when you are in the shower shaving your armpits and you see there are two extremely long hairs that keep getting missed by your razor. So you sweep past it again, and they disappear! Yay! And then the smart part of your brain puts some pieces together and it’s all “um, hey, you know how those two long pit hairs were abnormally long? Maybe you didn’t get them, maybe they are pressed close to your pit hiding, and growing longer.” And so you rub the skin and there those two fuckers are! Standing up straight and long and laughing at you. So you sweep your razor over them from every angle, and they are just weaving back and forth, and not letting go. So you super clean out your razor and you swipe once again, and ONE of the two is still there. So now, it’s just you and that one fucking abnormally long armpit hair, but by now your neck hurts and the kids are knocking on the bathroom door. So you give up. But you won’t forget. The next shower is just 24 hours away, and you will get it then…

Entitled little shits piss me off like nothing else. I struggle with this one because I really feel like it’s not their fault. Their parents, society, something is creating them. There is a large group of people, many young adults, but their age range any age really, who just think they are entitled to whatever they feel entitled too. Many expect big paydays right out of college. Or they don’t feel like they need to work because they can’t find a job that fits their dream. Or they just expect to win at everything. I have said to a few friends over the years that I think this may have started on soccer field. You remember those games where everyone wins? Ya, those games are where I think this trend started. Guess what kids! There are losers in this world. The object is, try hard so you don’t lose. They don’t hand out trophies to grown ups just for showing up.

This could be any young celebrity who doesn't take responsibility for their actions, but The Lohan will do.

This could be any young celebrity who doesn’t take responsibility for their actions, but The Lohan will do.

This one is another that is specific to me, but I really dislike when people rub their eyebrows the wrong way. It’s like nails on a chalkboard. The hairs get all askew and honestly, I can almost HEAR when my eyebrows are rubbed the wrong way. Really, there is nothing more to say about this. Just don’t do it.

Jell-o is one of the oddest foods in existence to me. It’s the consistency that really confuses me. I never quite know what to think of it. Sometimes it’s kind of watery, where other times it’s chunky and breaks apart as you bite it. Oh, and the Jell-o salad, or even worse, the Jell-o mold, should never be allowed at a party again. Period. I don’t care if you say it’s tradition. It’s out. Not at my party!

Someone, at some time, thought this was a good idea.

Someone, at some time, thought this was a good idea.

This dislike is yet another something I excel at, disorganization. I am the most disorganized person, yet I LOVE organization. My house overwhelms me. I have stacks of crap everywhere and looking at that crap just makes me want to hide under my sheets. I attempt to organize, and often succeed, but just a few weeks later everything is a mess again. I am desperate to tackle this in the coming year. I actually daydream about it, which ties in with procrastination I suppose. Oh, the cycle. I am in a constant cycle. Curse you disorganization!

I am so perplexed by the mess up there!

I am so perplexed by the mess up there!

So, when you are at the grocery store and your there paying and all of a sudden the person who is behind you in line is right next to you, well that is a big dislike. Dude, you have the length of your groceries on the conveyor belt to stand. Your stuff is still behind the scanner, so you don’t need to be right here, up in my business. Those people who are close line standers make me crazy. It’s not just at the grocery store, it could be in line at the snack stop at the local farmers market, or the line at a theme park. Anywhere people form lines, there is always one or two close line standers. And sometimes they go so far as to stand by your side in line. Where you going my friend? The line isn’t going to move any faster with you now standing next to me. All that’s going to happen now is me feeling crowded and unhappy and spitty. So back off. You aren’t welcome here!

Inserts in magazines multiply when you are not looking. You sit down to read your latest people magazine after you pulled them all out and you open it up, and out falls another. And then, when you are done and you want to just to read the article about the kid who was saved by his elderly dog the magazine just pops over to the glued in advertisement acting as a permanent bookmark for information all about erectile dysfunction. I don’t like those.

Finally we come to a dislike irks that crap out of me and causes me random tics, the throat bubble. You know that sound that someone gets in their throat that distorts their voice slightly? It’s often caused by dairy or phlegm. It creates a bubble over the vocal chord (totally not scientific stuff here, so don’t go quoting me) that makes them sound like they are disgusting monsters. All they need to do is clear their throat slightly and all would be well. However, many people ignore it and just keep talking, I think they hope that we won’t notice. Sadly, it’s all I notice. I will even clear my throat in an attempt for them to catch a hint. It frustrates me, and then I start twitching and they don’t catch on and then it finally goes away on it’s own. But by then, I have already crawled out of my skin and it will take time for me to recover. So please, if you notice a bubble, just a quick clear of your throat could keep the calm of those around you without drawing much attention to the voice distortion.

There you have it, my 10 dislikes. Please, take no offense if you are a close line stander or guilty of any other dislikes I listed here. I know I am probably guilty of some other peoples dislikes. We all just have to learn to live with each other. As long as you don’t stand close in line to me or talk with a weird throat bubble while rubbing your eyebrow backward. :)

10 Likes – 30DWC

This day’s post was supposed to have 10 likes and 10 dislikes.  I opted to split it into two.  My dislikes are so goofy, I figured I would dedicate an entire post to them.  Plus, my likes took a little more time than I had expected to throw together.  When you start talking about things you are passionate about, you can get a little distracted in the details.

LIKES

office supplies

My $0.75 purchase earlier tonight.

Office supplies are one of my absolute favorite things to buy.  There is something so satisfying about purchasing that new notepad and fancy mechanical pencil.  The ideas for their use are boundless. The crisp new pages bring new hope to the myriad of tasks that are about to be listed.  Tasks that had been overlooked and procrastinated on in the past.  The fancy new folders with their sleek and modern designs, the pencil tray for my desk.  All to help organize and prepare me for life.  I get excited thinking about it, but that’s not wrong, is it?

CrossFit is something I had heard a few things about in passing conversations, and it always looked like something I wouldn’t be able to do, until I met EA from EA’s Crossfit. I learned so much about my body and saw how strong I truly was.  I miss it desperately, and can’t wait to get back to the box.  For those of you unfamiliar with CrossFit, it “is a strength and conditioning program designed to help people gain a broad and general fitness. CrossFit programming concentrates on constantly varied functional movements performed at high intensity to achieve overall physical fitness, so people are prepared for any physical challenge.” (Taken from Wikipedia) My favorite part about it is that you compete against yourself and for you to reach your personal best.

Maleficent from Sleeping Beauty.  I love her.  She is both beautiful and frightening at the same time.   She will not be left off a party invitation, and she will let you know in the most extreme of ways. By the way, I am hoping for the best with Angelina Jolie being cast as her in the Maleficent movie.  In some ways, I am bummed they are making a movie, but it does show what a beloved character she is.

Maleficent

Maleficent

Reality TV is almost a guilty confession, but I find more and more that I am a fan of high brow reality television and not that junk everyone else watches.  Forgive me if you watch the junk.  I have friends and family who watch it too.  Not that Big Brother or any of the numerous true crime shows I watch are really any better, I just like to pretend from time to time that I am not totally wasting those hours of my day.

Speaking of True Crime, that’s another one of my likes.  I was raised by my grandparents, and my grandfather was a corrections officer at San Quentin. He shared stories of his experiences, and I would listen so intently when he would told them to me.  I originally intended on pursuing a career in criminal justice, and found myself reading and watching anything and everything about unsolved murders and other crimes.  This picture of my grandpa reading to me as an infant is one of my all time favorites.  It really helps answer the many questions people have about my interests once they get to know me. I can be a bit macabre.

Alcatraz '46 is always a good bed time story

Alcatraz ’46 is always a good bed time story

Dancing.  It’s exercise AND it’s like meditation to me.  I lose myself when I am on a dance floor.  It’s just me and the music.  I feel the rhythm and move with it.  I become the music.  I know that sounds really cheesy.  I wrote it and then deleted it, and then I was like, how the hell else am I going to convey that thought?  There is no other way.  So, as cheesy as “I become the music” sounds, it stays.

and when you get the chance...

and when you get the chance…

Juicing has become one of my favorite ways to get fruits and veggies into my daily diet. I have heard some people poo poo juicing, and those people are entitled to their opinions.  If done right, and not over done, it can be a great addition of vitamins every day.  No need to argue that juicing takes out the fiber and other goodness found in your veggies, I know.  I dump that all in the trash and don’t even think twice about it.  You know why?  I have a cup full of delicious vitamins that I wouldn’t have put into my body had I not just juiced the crap out of them.  So there.  Juicing is fun, and at times meditative.  Sitting there, pushing the fruits and veggies into the machine and watching the pulp come out is so satisfying.

juicer

I  My juicer at home. We have a super nifty fancy one at work, too.

I like to play video games.  I like them on Xbox, Wii, Play Station, pc, my phone, and even my Nook.  I will play a video game for days and days and lose hours of my life to them.  Hell, I lost three years to a little game called World of Warcraft.  That game was so deep it spawned my alter egos ZK, a little gnome who enjoys humping calves when you aren’t looking.  Like reality tv, I feel like I should be ashamed of being a video game junkie, but hey, at least I am still a present mother and take care of my kids unlike these parents.  I still have my priorities straight.

When killing the Fel Reaver was the biggest thing in WOW

When killing the Fel Reaver was the biggest thing in WOW

Las Vegas comes to mind when I am trying to come up with my last two likes.  I have been there far too many times than I’d like to admit since my first time there at 24.  I have yet to take my children, and I have only been three times with my husband, but I have been to Vegas so many times I am happy they are putting new hotels on the strip for me to stay at!  Ha, no, I haven’t been that many times, but it practically seems like it.  I have even stayed at a pretty shady motel that was one of those live-in motels and possibly had hourly rates.  And quite possibly it had a large blood stain on the carpet.  What I like so much about Vegas is people watching and everyone’s dream of being a winner.  It’s so entertaining and exciting!

I can’t believe I almost missed this one.  My final “Like” is an easy one. One of my first introductions to blogging was this lovely ladies blog and a story she wrote about an explosive swim diaper (which I am so upset I can’t find, but it makes an appearance in her book Let’s Pretend This Never Happened).  I related to her crazy ramblings and as she says “found my tribe”. I could go on an on about how great she is, but check out her blog to find out for yourself.  The Bloggess makes me laugh until I snot on my computer screen, and sometimes she can touch me to much that I get teared up.  She empowers others who suffer from depression and helps us laugh during our dark moments.  Oh, and I met her once!

Me and Jenny Lawson.  I am trying desperately to contain my fangirl.

Me and Jenny Lawson. I am trying desperately to contain my fangirl.

Warm & Fuzzy – 30DWC

I am supposed to share with you “some little things that make [me] warm and fuzzy”.  I pretend like I am not a snugly person, but deep down, I like fuzzy, warm things.  However, many of my fuzzy warm things tend to be broken.  So what I really mean to say is that I like, broke down, forgotten, left behind, fuzzy and warm things.

My entire life I have always been drawn to the rejected animals.  The forgotten dogs and cats at the shelters. Many people head to the shelter and pick the cutest, youngest, sweetest looking animal to take home and love.  Left behind are the forgotten ones.

He just wants to love you

He just wants to love you

Those animals have hearts and love to give.

Awww, meow kitty.

Awww, meow kitty.

They watched all the other cute and adorable animals get taken home by the little girls in princess dresses, and were left in the cold of the shelter.

Someone just needs a hug.

Someone just needs a hug.

But sadly, like every other shelter animal, they have some issues too.

I will free him of the shackle of the shelter.

I will free him of the shackle of the shelter.

Babies under one year and old people also make me warm and fuzzy, but there is nothing that touches my heart more than the unwanted shelter animal missing an eye.  I am sure there is something to that.  Like, somehow I relate to the unwanted animals.  Not sure where that stems from?  Could it be the time some asshole in middle school told me I looked  like I had down syndrome?  Was it because kids had nothing better to do with their time aside from taunting me for being a little different in high school?  Or is it far deeper?  Is it because I was raised by my grandparents and somehow felt unwanted by my parents?  I don’t know. To be honest, I know I am still holding onto all of those feelings, otherwise, why they hell would they surface when I start looking within?  But those are to be dealt with on their own terms.  Right now, I just accept that I like the weirdest of the weird animals, who may or may not feast on my body while I sleep.  They make me feel warm and fuzzy.

The iPod Shuffle – 30DWC

Last night’s post was heavy.  I am still thinking of all the things I forgot to write to my grandma, like I somehow missed out on my only opportunity to tell her what I want to say.  So weird.  So tonight, I am going with a good ol’ MySpace/Facebook standard.  The iPod Shuffle list.  This is where you put your iPod on shuffle and list off the songs that come on.  Why this is so fun to me, I just don’t know.  But I love it.  Pretty much anytime I can talk about music or movies, I get a little giddy.  Alright, let’s hope for the best.  Here we go:

1.  Too Close by Alex Clare
Lucky me, the first song that comes up is a song I enjoy, but I am not passionate about.  So, I don’t have a whole lot to say except, I like it.

2.  go! club mix by Tones on Tail
This song made an appearance on the only mix tape I was ever given that I wish I had known I would need to make multiple back up copies of to keep for the rest of my life.  It was amazing.  I made copies for friends who also wish they had kept copies.  How did one boy know every song that would shape my young teenage mind.  Thank you Shreve for sharing so many god damn amazing songs with me on the one mix tape.  You know, there is still one song that I am never was able to rediscover.  It was possibly a Pogues song that was a B-Side that was never re-released.  Maybe I should start seeking that song out again.  DAMN!  That was a great mix tape.  But anyway, this song was one of those as well as a song that was played once in a blue moon at the clubs in the early 90’s.  Fun dance song.

3.  #thatPOWER by will.i.am featuring Justin Bieber
Of course it jumps to the Bieb’s with the next song. But dammit I love dancing to this song.  will.i.am is quite the master entertainer and puts together some pretty groovy collaborations. It’s got some nice breaks so I can take a breather after some serious ass shakin’.

4.  Chevy Van by Sammy Kershaw
I will never understand how shuffle decides what to play.  You would think it would go for similar genres or beats, but no.  After a dance track it popped up with Chevy Van.  I am a fan of Sammy Kershaw’s version of this song.  Although, the writer and original artist of this song, Sammy Johns died this year in January, so I will give him a nod here for writing one of my favorite songs to belt out in the car on a road trip.  I dare you to listen and not feel the draw of a sing-a-long with me.

5.  Kabuki Girl by Descendents
Oh the memories.  LOVE LOVE LOVE The Descendents.  Kabuki Girl is a great song, but I would pick about a dozen others over this one.  Sadly, I left the power in iPod Shuffle’s hands and Kabuki Girl was the chosen one.  Early pop punk goodness.  I can remember sitting at my record player laying the needle on my Milo Goes to College album.  I so miss my records.

6.  Zensual by Karunesh
Another example of “WTF iPod Shuffle”.  I have several songs I downloaded to assist me with meditation.  I have yet to really put them to use.  I do enjoy this collection, for what it’s worth.

7. Hurt by Johnny Cash
Honestly, the 7th song was another one from Karunesh and the meditation cd, so I skipped to the next song and it was I Got Stripes by Johnny Cash.  I would happily share that song or any of Johnny’s other songs here too, but while I was in the bathroom doing some light reading from Entertainment Weekly I saw a brief column by the music video’s director Mark Romanek.  This song was originally performed by Nine Inch Nails, but when covered by Johnny Cash, it sends chills down my spine.  The director captured the song and Johnny & June perfectly.

8.  Boyfriend by Justin Bieber
Hang my head in shame.  I have no excuses.  I fucking love this song.  I don’t care what a douche he has been lately.  This song is pretty sweet.

9.  Play Hard by David Guetta featuring Ne-yo and Akon
Another awesome dance song.  I have been filling my iPod with newer songs lately for inspiration.  I love to dance.  Give me a good beat and I can’t stop myself.  So, I have been finding the best of the best to keep my body moving.  This song is one of those songs.

10. Boys ‘Round Here by Black Shelton featuring Pistol Annies & Friends
Yes!!!!  I am so excited this is the last song to pop up.  :) This rounds out my taste.  I can’t be placed in a box.  I love it all.  Punk, metal, dance, pop, and even pop country.  I love my old country music that my grandparents raised me on, but I have made fun of current pop country for years.  It’s finally getting to me, and I love it.  There’s been a few newer songs I enjoy, but so far this is my favorite and by far the catchiest.  Chew tobacco, chew tobacco, chew tobacco, spit.

There you have it.  I admit to cheating on one of those, but do you blame me?  No one wants back to back meditation songs unless they are actually meditating.  If you do this little challenge yourself, let me know. I think it’s fun to see what is lurking in someones iPod on shuffle.  :)

A Letter to Someone – 30DWC

Dear Grandma,

Unbelievable that you have been gone as long as you have. I still have moments when I think about picking up the phone to call you. Or that when I stop by the house to see Grandpa, you will be sitting in your chair catching up on your “continued stories”. I know I haven’t been to the cemetery as often as I had intended to go. As time goes on I find I don’t need to because that’s not where you are. I have seen you in my dreams and we catch up over coffee. Sometimes you come to me when I am sitting at work, frustrated with life, and I can here you telling me life’s not so bad. You remind me of the good that has come to me because of the hard work I have put in. Then there are days that I am looking at Zoe and Riley wishing you could watch them grow up, and I feel you tell me you are there by their side..

I miss you every day. I miss your hugs. I miss your laugh. I miss our talks. You were truly my best friend, and it’s so hard to let go.

But do you see me? Do you see how I am trying so hard to make positive changes in my life? I know I have been blessed with love and family and friends, but for some reason I was still so unhappy. I am working on changing that. I am embracing my life and everything within it and letting go of the negative things that were weighing me down. It was heavy and a burden for everyone around me. Only good can come from these changes. I am excited to share it with everyone. Heck, even Maureen is inspiring me to find positive things daily. I really need to get her to share her Project Sunny Side Up with everyone.

Oh! Did you see those treats I made for Zoe’s birthday? I tried so hard to create the perfect little Dalek head for her Doctor Who party. I really could have used your expertise when I was making them. Riley was quite amused as she watched me struggle with the candy coating. I was a candy coated mess. And I was so nauseous from licking my fingers (yes I washed each time I licked) and sampling the treats. I don’t know how you did it.

I took the girls back to school clothes shopping today. That was always a great trip with you. It always ended with a stop at Orange Julius and The Wherehouse on our way out. I would play whatever cassette I picked on the ride home. How you put up with that, I will never know. There are times I want to burn down the house to stop listening to the noise Riley insists on playing. But you were always a trooper. Obviously it’s because you secretly loved The Smiths, 10,000 Maniacs or Butthole Surfers. Although, I guess I had to listen to quite a bit of your music too, otherwise I don’t know how Loretta Lynn, Barbara Mandrel, The Judd’s and Charlie Pride became part of my regular mix on my iPod. :) I know the same will go for my girls.

I love you! We all do. I am so thankful you were there in my life. I am thankful you raised me and even my friends. We are all so blessed to have in our lives. Goodnight for now, but not goodbye.

-Gina

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Grandma, me, and my mom

Picture of yourself? – Day 1 of 30DayChallenge

The original challenge here was written as “Who are you?” I think that’s a pretty vague question, and will really be answered over the course of this blogs lifespan, so I went with the picture of myself. This picture really speaks volumes as to who I am and where I am at in my life right now. It’s a before and after from April of last year and to me just a few days ago. I see this and am in shock what a difference can be made in just a short period of time.

before and after

What a difference a year makes

In the photo on the left, I knew I was heavy, but I didn’t see it as much of a difference to any other time I have been lugging around a few extra pounds. Sure, my blood pressure was increasing, aches and pains were a giant drag, and I was not able to sleep at night, but I thought I was still in a pretty good space health wise. I felt like I was getting older and those were all things I would have to accept. A little over a year later and I realize how wrong I was. Those aches and pains and other issues were all so easy to fix through simply changing my eating habits and moving my body. Finding those foods that caused my body to be in pain and create inflammation, and eliminating them was all I needed to do to help my body feel like it should. I didn’t have to live in pain. I didn’t have to suffer through sleepless nights. I just had to listen to my body and take care of me.

The biggest thing I see in the photo on the right isn’t actually in the picture. It’s the mental game I seem to keep playing with myself. Every morning for the last several months I have been waking up and beating myself up. Disappointed in my lack of commitment. Frustrated that I ate that sandwich when I really should have skipped the bread. Staring at my belly roll in my work pants because it’s resting on my thighs. Why can’t I embrace the progress I have made. Look at how far I have come! I am making huge strides! I look at myself on the right and think to myself “Damn girl, you’re stunning. You are doing great!”

Now, to work on saying that to myself on the daily. This picture helps me see while I have a little more work on my outside, I still have a lot of work to do on my inside. And writing this first post on this 30 Day Challenge is a reminder to me how much I learn about myself when I am blogging. :)

30 Day Writing Challenge – Yup

I like challenges.  I like checking things off lists.  I like when I have structure.  I do far better with structure.  This whole being on my own with writing, healthy life-styling, and being an adult is kind of hard.  So I set out on Google to find some inspiration.  (Don’t judge, you know you use Google to seek the ultimate answer to “Life, the Universe, and Everything”) Sadly, I didn’t find the answer to being an adult. What I found on Google and other blogs, like many other blogs, was 30 Day Writing Challenges.

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A writing challenge?  A structured set of topics to write about daily?  AND I can check them off of a list? This is just what I need. The standard writing challenges either lean towards teens or actual authors seeking inspiration to get them out of a slump.  I opted to blend the two and create my own challenge list.  You are all welcome to join me.  I know I am starting this nine days into a month and not on the first as would be the norm for someone starting a 30 day challenge, but I guess I am just wild like that.  Totally crazy off the chain.  Shaking it up.

I must admit the part of me with OCD is cringing.  I am not starting on the first.  It’s not a Sunday.  It’s not the beginning of the year.  I have yet to fully create my 30 Day Writing Challenge list.  I am just throwing myself out here and hoping for the best.  This ought to be good.  Or it could be bad, but I am leaning towards good in an effort to calm that screeching OCD voice in my head.

Day One will be posted in a bit, as well as the list of posts we get to look forward to!   The creativity is just ready to bubble up and out.  Or maybe that’s the weird anxiety I am pretending not to have.  Either way, it’s something.

Reviving Old Goals

I guess searching for my old Apple/iTunes ID can be helpful.  I went to my old email address and found a hidden gem in my old Yahoo! mail.  In 2005 I had created a bucket list of sorts and invited some friends to come along.  It was before I had quit drinking or even started on any path to a truly healthy self, aside from trying every health gimmick there was on the market.

My life has changed quite a bit, and this list is about to be updated and some added to my “Goals” page.  However the original text from the email is below in black.  My comments and updates are in red, but if I have completed it my comment is green.

I was inspired by someone’s website I stumbled across a couple months ago.  I have been slowly accumulating things I would like to do.  Just thought I would share and encourage everyone else to do the same!  We can share our goals every so often to see where we are.  I think it’s good to have BIG goals and little goals.

 As you can see I only have a little over 30 Things to do as of today, but as the weeks go on I will update and share with anyone else who wants to do this.  Just let me know if you would like to be a part of this too!  If you don’t, no need to respond I will just take you off my email list.

 For some of you, I will have this posted on a certain chubby website and I encourage you to post yours there too.

 101 Things to do Before I Turn 50!

 

1.                Get a cover-up/fix my tattoo on my upper right arm

2.                Lose 40lbs (Goal of 138lbs) - More like gained 40lbs!!

3.                Learn to Ski/Snowboard

4.                See a Musical on Broadway in NY

5.                Go on a European vacation

6.                Catch up all scrapbooking to current photos

7.                Train\Run a marathon - Completed my first marathon in October of 2008

8.                Keep my house (including bathrooms and under the bed) clean for a month straight

9.                Buy a house

10.            Fix my bike and ride it  -  well, we did sell it at a garage sale, so someone has fixed it an ridden it

11.            Decide what I want to be when I grow up - Still working on that one

12.            Go back to school - I did for a short period of time

13.            Be a stay at home mom  - Um, I think it’s too late for this one

14.            Travel across the country and see historic sites

15.            Work on a political campaign

16.            Tell my dad just what I think of him - Hmmm, not sure it’s worth it

17.            Go to Hawaii

18.            Buy some stocks/Play the stock market

19.            Learn how to play Pai Gow Poker and play in a casino - DONE!  And I suck, but I did it.

20.            Learn to make flower arrangements - I did buy a book.

21.            Read the books I’ve always thought I should read:

a.       The Bell Jar - DONE

b.      A Tale of Two Cities

c.       Anna Karenina - DONE

d.      Great Expectations

e.       Pride and Prejudice

f.        Wuthering Heights

g.       One Hundred Years of Solitude- DONE

h.       Satanic Verses

i.         For Whom the Bell Tolls

j.        Wrinkle in Time

k.      Atlas Shrugged

l.         The Haunting of Hill  House

m.     Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance

n.       Sophie’s Choice

o.      The Bonesetters Daughter - DONE

22.            Go to a football game with my darling hubby

23.            Go snorkeling

24.            Learn to sew (much better then I know now)

25.            Run a nine minute mile

26.            Get a pug and name it Jeeves

27.            Buy a real diamond necklace

28.            Get a fake tan (the spray you down kind)

29.            Get a Brazilian Wax (OUCH!)

30.            Write and publish a children’s book

31.            Host Christmas Dinner - DONE, holy crap, when I hosted that year I had forgotten this was even on my list!

32.            Learn to Swing Dance

33.            Exercise in the morning 5 days in a row - DONE I did it, but is it on my list to continue doing this for the rest of forever?

34.            Clean my garage so one car can fit in it!

I can’t wait to add to this and update my Goals! page.

Goals! Everyone Needs Some

Goals

Get out your pen and paper!

I am so excited to add a new Page to my blog.  GOALS!!  I have seen a few blogs out there with different “List” pages and really wanted to do one too, but never knew exactly what type of a check off list I would keep.  That is until today.  I was looking at other blogs and stumbled across Fit For A Year who has a great page titled “Goals”.  Although my goals are much different, I somehow connected to these in a way.  The one that really inspired me was “Train More Consistently”.

Yes!  That is exactly the kind of goal I want to set for myself.  So, without further ado, here is the link to my newest “Page”, GOAL!  I hope you will join me and share some of your personal goals here with all of us.  Inspire one another.  Maybe you have a goal you are setting for yourself that I didn’t even think of but could really benefit from?  I want to know about it.  Share!

Something else we should all consider when setting our goals is making plans to achieve our goals.  How will we succeed in reaching our goal? In the business world there is something called “SMART” goal setting where SMART stands for:

SMART

SMART Goals

We can apply this to any of our personal goals as well.  Or just simplify it further by setting our goal, making a plan, and taking action.  Some say if you write it down, or share your goal with someone it will make your goal more achievable.  If you want to take it one step further, you can always join this website, Goal Buddy.  This is a website with goal tracking software to help you reach your goals.  It’s free.  I have not used it, but a self help book I read recommended it.  If you decide to check it out and find success or totally hate it, share that here.  I am interested.

That’s it.  Let’s go!  I am ready to start checking things off my list.